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I Will Grieve

I Will Grieve

How do I write a blog post on the morning of Wednesday, November 9th, 2016? How can I comment on an election that feels like a dream?

 

My heart is broken. I am devastated. 

 

I do not have any words of hope at this time.

I do not have any words of pride at this time.

I do not have any flowery, inspirational, spiritual words to reassure you with.

 

I am grieving.

 

I will not spiritually bypass this emotion.

I will not go too quickly to what we need to do next.

I will not sugar coat this.

I will not defend against this emotion.

 

I will grieve.

 

I will allow myself to deeply feel this grief, because the Pathwork teaches me to be fully present to whatever arises.

I will allow myself to deeply feel this grief, because if I don’t it will turn to hatred, judgment, hostility–or worse, indifference and despair.

If you are feeling celebratory, or like this isn’t that big of a deal, thats fine. But understand I am not fine. Many Americans and others around the world are not fine.

 

I am grieving.

 

I need space to grieve. Don’t tell me to get over it. Please understand there are many people today who feel grief, who feel afraid today. Please be compassionate with them even if you cannot understand or agree with them.

 

I will rebound.

 

I always do. But I will not skip over this grief. It’s too important. My grief will honor all those who are disillusioned and afraid they will be marginalized, rejected, discriminated against, objectified. I will honor these people by grieving with them, for them, as them. Because we are all connected. We are all one people. What we do to others we do to ourselves. I will honor this truth.

 

I will pray.

 

I will grieve.

 

And if you feel the same, I invite you to grieve with me. Because a broken heart is an open  heart. And together, if we dive as deeply as we can into our emotions, maybe will will reach a deeper truth. One we can all embrace. One that includes us all.

 

 

 

 

22 Comments

  1. very helpful reminder here for me to not jump to spiritual bypass. Thank you Beth

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    • Yes, very important not to get to love and hope without feeling the pain. I can feel the part of me that wants to feel spiritual, feel love, feel inspirational. But I can only feel grief and I will trust that. Thanks so much for being willing to go there too!

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      • Dearest Beth I am English and not American I awoke today to such a shock and I first felt great fear and enormous grief myself.I wanted to send you my Love My Blessings and My empathy because Yes We Are All One and We all have a right to grieve at anytime for any reason it is a perfectly natural process .To any other beautiful souls who feel the same My heart is with you also Blessings of Love and Divine Light <3

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        • Thank you, Nikki. It’s great to connect across oceans. Compassion has no boundaries or barriers.

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        • IN THERAPY GROUPS YOU DONT TRY TO FIX YOU JUST LISTEN. SOME PAINS ARE ONLY OVERCOME WITH SILENCE, ALL THINGS ARE IMPERMANENT AND COME TO PASS. ITS JUST LIKE A COMMON COLD. THE CAUSE OF SUFFERING IS ATTACHMENT. IF YOU DONT FLOW WITH THINGS YOU BLOCK YOUR GROWTH ATTACHMET TO HILARY IS ATTACHMENT LIKE ANY OTHER YOU ONLY OVERCOME YOUR SUFFERING BY EXPANDING YOU CONCIOUSNESS

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          • Thanks for sharing. I am finding silence to be quite healing.

  2. Oh Beth ❤

    Beautiful.
    I feel the same exact way. I am tired of my heart breaking. Thank you.
    💓

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    • Thanks, Patti. I hope the loud wailing of each of our broken hearts is heard and felt worldwide.

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  3. I am with you Beth. Thank you for writing this for me to see first thing, for being that voice in my community that I was waiting to hear. For expressing what you are feeling and giving that to us to hold and not be alone. The grieving is part of the suppressed feminine, the places we don’t honor in the bright light of our goals and accomplishments, in the glare of the constant admonishments to get over it, to let it go. To be silent.

    Today I am grieving. And yet, like you, today I am also using my voice.

    With great heart and love coming your way.

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    • It is comforting, to know we are grieving together. And to know we are also using our voice. Love to you!

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  4. Oh yes, deep grief, deep pain. I will indeed grieve and not skip over this painful, aching loss for it will remind me that my heart is broken. Broken open to the Light. Hoping for the Light in the midst of our grief.

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    • Thanks for your sharing, Susan. And for opening your heart to the grief and the Light. Truly they are one. Blessings to you!

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  5. Yes you are right. In any case, as the Guide would say
    We have brought it about.

    I love all your comments Congratulations
    marisa

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    • Thanks so much for sharing, Marisa. Hopefully through feeling the pain of our grief we will discover the ways in which we have contributed to this creation.

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  6. This is so hard. I didn’t realize how completely unprepared for this outcome that I was. I have been in a state of utter disbelief. I am unable to even consider worst case scenarios. Therefore in light of his decent most recent speech, I am focusing on optimism and what I can do. I am so grateful that Congress, the Senate and the Supreme Court have the ability to intervene and even stop Presidential actions as far as majority voting and upholding, protecting constitutional rights.
    I honestly believed that this would never happen. He could behave much differently from here on through. Thank goodness he had advisors and a large, hopefully exemplary staff.
    Thank you so very much for this post. I am so grateful and comforted.

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    • Jamie,

      Your welcome, I am glad you feel comforted, and I hear your shock and your pain. Yes, this is hard. And focusing on optimism and what you can do is important. So is feeling your grief, your shock and your pain. It is through the gateway of these feelings that we will discover how to rise from the ashes and transform our country and ourselves. The only way out is through. Blessings to you!

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  7. Thank you Beth for providing this forum and this service to our community. This staged takeover is not OK and I’m not OK with it, nor will I be. I don’t want to dwell in fear, nor do I want to ignore it. I need to honor it. Hope to join your circle on Sunday.

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    • Your welcome, Jennifer! Together we will navigate that middle way between dwelling in fear and avoiding it. I’d love to see you Sunday!

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  8. Shock, disbelief,sadness and fear come over me and sometimes all at once. Wanting to understand this place we are in as a nation and what is mine to do to help in the healing of a fractured country. I am trying to feel this and I do, without glazing over it in some defense or denial. I think, I pray and share when I can feel safe to do so. Thanks all for sharing

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    • Thanks John, for sharing. It’s great to have spiritual community to create a healing container for this difficult time.

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  9. Beautiful affirmation of the importance of grieving the gut-wrenching loss that many of us experienced with Hillary’s defeat. Blessing to you, Beth, for standing up and honoring the full range of emotions.

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    • Thanks so much, John. I really appreciate it!

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